Take Life by the Balls

Need I ssy More today :D

*shudder* speed

I felt anxiety and fear unlike anything I’ve ever felt. I started to question my own reality; the way objects look began to seem extremely disturbing, people started to look disturbingly alien (as if it was the first time I had ever laid eyes on a human being), I felt as if I was realizing something humans aren’t supposed to realize. I was beginning to see things working behind the scenes, and it was frightening as hell. It’s kind of like that splinter in your mind that reality isn’t what you’ve always thought it to be, and now that you know the truth, it will haunt you forever. I have trouble even relating to my memories, my past, my identity, who I thought I was and who I wanted to be. For the first time in my life, I felt afraid. Of what, I have no idea. But it’s this feeling, its deep within me. I think I might have to stop my mind from transcending, for good if I ever want to feel normal again. Its de-personalization and de-realization to a degree that really frightens me, I’ve never felt so alien, I never knew anyone could feel so alien and alone. But now I’m scared of something I can’t even put into words, and I’ve broken down a couple times trying to explain it to people.But I can't. There is no words to describe it or maybe I haven't yet learnt the language yet.

I am climbing out the well of delusional reality and into the sunlight. I might either find myself or become Batman.